Clinginess

 Is it wrong to be in need of someone?

Is it wrong to be in need of you?

Starting to think that you coming to my life only make me crave you even more. I'm not gonna lie that I miss our old love. I miss your presence so much. I miss our running jokes that we say to each other in the middle of the night.

Is your presence making me emptier?

I feel emptier now that we have our own things to do. Are you there? Are we growing apart? Is it wrong for me to crave talking to you? Is it wrong that I cry after we say goodnight?

Am I clingy?

You need to be healthy. You need to sleep early. You need to be with your parents that needs you. You need to see your friends. You need to keep in touch with your family.

You need some space, right? I never want to suffocate you.

I read our old conversations and think, we weren't always like this.

You made my heart feel so full. Talking to you never feels like a thing that keeps my track of time. I miss those so much. I miss it so bad.

Repeating words, increasing silence, longer spaces, prominent unknowness.

Are we becoming less important in each other's lives?

A playlist that gets more and more overlooked. You never played a lot of music anyway. A bucket list that's turning into a reminder of how it used to be back then.

Are we getting unhealthy?

I'm getting unhealthy.

The thing is, I miss people.

Reading our old texts only feels like an intentional self-hurting.

Situation never helps either.

Then what should I do? Should I leave altogether?

I'm not healthy enough currently to be in a relationship.